Comparing

A common scenario just happened. Myself, my husband, and my boy just went to have lunch together. We were all happy, messing around together and having a laugh.

My husband was on his phone then showed me a picture. It was of someone we used to know before we went to live in Australia. We were in similar situations both at home and at work. I started flicking through the photos.

I could physically feel an ache start in my chest that seemed to connect directly to my brain. My whole body felt heavy.

In 2007, this person and I were basically in the same boat – fast forward 18 years

She has two children to my one

She is a professor to my nothing

She is fit and active to my overweight, lazy self

I know I shouldn’t compare, I know I shouldn’t - it will only ever make me feel worse.

Plus, I would never want to deny others of what they’ve achieved in life, no I wouldn’t.

I simply have to take the hand I’ve been dealt and live with it.